I should know by now that life seems to present me with two possible speeds. Stagnant-snail-paced-searching-and-wondering OR slap-me-in-the-face-everything-is-happening-right-now.
Over the past while (a year or three) my life has felt stagnant. Being a double Aries, this sensation is quite uncomfortable, frustrating and ... painful. The reality is that the changes have been so small and slow paced that I couldn't see them until they slapped me in the face on July 29th.
Never forget that the undercurrent of change is present in your life.
Don't get me wrong, I've done a lot of praying. After learning Reiki one, I was unexpectedly introduced to one of my spirit guides. This led me to do some searching through meditation to learn about the others. It's a whole lot easier to talk to spirits that have a face and familiarity.
I now ask them for guidance and protection daily.
Now that I am in the middle of fast-forward, I'm feeling a bit out of sorts. I mostly find myself upset and crying over things that normally wouldn't phase me. It's all about the release of the old, making room for the new and purging all those pent up feelings and energy that I built up over time.
I feel like my strongest self and yet I wonder how I will survive.
I feel like we are on the top of the world and yet I wonder if the world is going to crumble under our feet.
I feel secure, yet I feel incredibly vulnerable.
I'm stretching out of this cocoon of stagnancy.
I'm being reminded of my strength and resiliency.
There's a freshness to life.
I'm proof of ideas and wishes manifesting.
If you see me and I look a little different, don't be surprised.